~BrokeN PastS~

study!

2007-04-28T10:25:00.000+08:00

study!

revision

2007-04-15T17:33:00.000+08:00

i cant believe im revising. wows.
let's see what i've revised:

A Math:
2. Simultaneous Eqns
3. Indices, Surds, Logarithms
4. Quadratic Expressions and Equations
5. Polynomials
6. Matrices
7. Coordinate Geometry
8. Linear Law
9. Functions
14. Binomial Theorem

continuing revision tmr..

i know it's hard; but i'll try.
i believe one day, we will be together.

no use posting

2007-04-11T23:01:00.000+08:00

no use blogging cos no one bothers.

dont know la

2007-04-03T18:35:00.000+08:00

this is such a typical world.
if i got it or not i'll just have to accept it.
no matter how hard i try it's still the same.
blame fate lahs dammit.

o sazpdy vtorf piy om vasdd ypfsu.
o fpm'y lmpe eju.
yjru kidy eraarf iq dp diffrmau.
mp pmr lmped jpe o graa.
jsbr upi rbrt gray dp sapmr nrgptr?
rbrtufsu,
eslr iq,vsm'y rbrm dsu hppf zptmomh yp zu ziz.
hp dvjppa sapmr,
drromh pyjrtd dp vapdr smf jsbomh him,
jsbr trvrdd & aimvj sapmr,
yslomh yjsy apmh nid ytoq jpzr sapmr,
trsvj nsvl omyp sm rzqyu jpidr ; sapmr.
o vsm'y rbrm gomf dpzrpmr ejp imfrtdysmfd zr.
ary sapmr dpzrpmr ejp vstrs.
yjrtr pmvr esd,
niy oy fprdm'y zsyyrt & djr mrbrt fprd mpe.
oy satrsfu jityd dp zivj,
niy djr kidy zsfr oy eptdr.
eju?
eju fp o jsbr yp diggrt saa yjrdr sapmr?
hpf ejsy jsbr o fpmr yp frdrtnr saa yjrdr?
zu qtsurtd jsbr mpy nrrm jrstf smf o hirdd oy'aa mrbrt nr.
yjr frboa'd smhra eoaa mrbrt nr gpimf.

for those who aren't the least bothered and couldn't care less,
don't even bother deciphering it.
for those who really cares, you can just ask me straightaway.

never blessed.

2007-03-27T20:58:00.000+08:00

i envy the people around me.
they're so blessed.
even the small little things,
i cant even experience.
what is life man.
problems stacking after problems,
unhappy things & pasts stacking after another.
so sick of life lahs.

life's like that

2007-03-14T17:35:00.000+08:00

i hate it.
i dont like it.
no one cares.
but life's like that.
life's not a gift to be enjoyed after all.

forget you bitch.

2007-03-03T11:32:00.000+08:00

i realise everything.
from now on no one is to mention her to me.
im forgetting her for good.
it doesn't matter a bit to me anymore.

forgive and forget

2007-02-26T21:54:00.001+08:00

i jus realised i have to do something.
i cant just leave this situation lying untouchd'
i cant see it turn into ashes and a piece of history.
i have to be able to accept what has happened;
and not brood over the past.
i have to look forward to the future.
until i'm ready to face you again,
i'll be able to maintain this friendship with you again.
trust me;
i can do it, real soon.

forgive and forget.

everything anew.

2007-02-21T18:24:00.000+08:00

im starting everything anew.
everything in my mind; blank.
good and bad pasts erased.
mood swings these days but i hope nothing's changed.
for some particular reason,
i may have misunderstood the way things were.
i may have thought too much.
hereby saying a sorry if i need to.
hatred = gone.

its not the end

2007-01-23T22:54:00.000+08:00

the devil believes.
the devil knows it's not the end.
the devil holds on.

when things haven't happen, the devil shall not think about it.
step by step and we'll move on.
everything's going to be fine i believe.

trying to update more

2007-01-22T20:05:00.000+08:00

haha since someone is complaining this thing is quite dead then i update lah =P
i think i'll start from today cos its like too many days nv update also 4got wad i did heh.

today super energetic in school!
didnt sleep much in class though got sleep a lil =X
awww man!
my ezlink card turned out to be adult fare wthhhh!!
wlaos so ex lor one bus trip 65cents one train trip $1.15 OMG.
total one day should be about $4.90?
DAMNNN I WANA COMPLAINNNNN grrrrr

~~it ends tonight.~~

i have nothing to say

2007-01-15T16:40:00.000+08:00

i have nothing to say.

if u really think that word doesnt mean much to me then i can say that your're very wrong.
u know it hurts to hear tis?
to think that i actually was not angry with what u said to her;
i was never angry with u before.
but now since ure pushed to the limit,
i have nothing else to say.

2007-01-10T21:52:00.000+08:00

Devil is lazy !
Devil is away !
Devil is busy !
Devil isn't free !

So SHAWN is here to help him post~

Alrights what happened recently was..
ON MONDAY WE WENT TO WATCH DEATH NOTE 2.
And yesterday DEVIL got his treat from lala at sakaeee.

Tsk tsk.

Don't know what to blog also lah.
Just that these days had been rather busy.
Or is it just shawn.

Nahh give your trademark smile =DDDDDDDDDDDD.

Have nothing to say anymore.
SHAWN is gone ~

guys im sick of you

2007-01-08T21:24:00.000+08:00

okay people get this fact right.
im gonna say this once and no more.

there is nothing between us.
im sick of all the rumors spreading around.
cant we be just friends?
it isnt a crime right?
believe it or not,
i have nothing else to say.

i dont entertain bullshit.

not a wise decision

2007-01-02T01:25:00.000+08:00

maybe it's not a wise decision.
maybe it was just infatuation.
or maybe it wasn't meant to be.
okay i wana lead a carefree life.
no more infatuations or love;
until i meet the right girl.

cold

2006-12-31T01:14:00.000+08:00

i feel so cold.
2 pairs and an odd one out.
w/o 6, u cant have 3 pairs.
and now we have 5.
the devil does not show its tears.
devils are not evil, mean demons.
deep inside,
they too have a heart; easily pierced.
the devil has been pierced enough.
they say actions say it all, but nothing has been said yet.

u lied

2006-12-29T00:55:00.000+08:00

u lied the second time.
i wont initiate anymore.
let time slowly pass.

im really very tired.
i feel like just go into a deep deep sleep and nv wake up.
nv to face any problems again.
how can i do that.
god give me an answer please.

mummy

2006-12-27T20:21:00.000+08:00

my mummy is the person i really need right now.

ahxin is right.
i really have to thank her and ahwen for the things they've done.
and thanks py for the things you've done too.
i appreciate all that.
and please, mervin;
i've known you for 3 years and running.
dont keep so quiet.
i know you aint that quiet type.
whenever i nag at you,
im just trying to make u talk.
i apologise if u felt it a nuisaince.

trust.
how can i spell this word?
i cant find a way to spell it.
i cant find it anywhere.
i know it damn clear we arent strangers.
we sure can have that trust among us yes?
i give my all to you people.
you people are like my air and water.
i need u guys.
im trying so hard to keep it alive.
but no one notices.
no one saw my tears before.

im losing grip.
losing faith.

the devil cried again

2006-12-26T23:53:00.000+08:00

the devil cried again.
the devil doesnt wana wish the regulars to end.
the devil fears the future without the regulars.
the devil cries when he thinks about it.
the devil loves the regulars.

and again,
the devil teared.

zzz

2006-12-25T19:32:00.000+08:00

and again.
it's me alone in this empty house.
walking that pitch black corridor.
im really thankful that you guys stil accompanied me for the night despite the fact that it's so untidy and squeezy.

i was really disappointed when she couldnt make it.
it's officially one year.
i was awaiting to see her and longed for a warm hug;
but stil it didnt happen.
let's hope by the end of the year we still meet again =/

i really needed a hug last night.
but i didnt show it.
i believe laopo knew how i felt when i knew i couldnt meet oxy for exactly one year.

i dont wish to see any of us drifting away.
i fear the coldness and silence.
i only want to be there for her;
share her woes.
i hope the group can stay until the end of time.
to see any of us apart is the last thing on earth that i wish to happen.

I MISS MY MUMMY!

2006-12-24T00:35:00.000+08:00

I SO HAVE TO POST THIS BECAUSE I SIMPLY MISS MY MUMMY !!
dont worry it will NOT reach until 1year that we last met =)))
i'm so lost for words how i wish to see you OMG!!
tmr will be the day alrites NO WAY its gonna be one year (((=
MERRY XMAS TO ALL IN ADVANCE !!

hear my wishes santa

2006-12-22T00:00:00.000+08:00

Last night I took a walk in the snow,
Couples holding hands, places to go.
Seems like everyone but me is in love,
Santa can you hear me?
I signed my letter that's sealed with a kiss.
I sent it off,and just said this:
I know exactly what I want this year,
Santa can you hear me?
I want my baby, baby.
I want someone to love me,
And someone to hold.
Maybe, maybe
I'll be on my own and I'll be thankful
I really hope that you're on your way,
With something special for me in your sleigh.
Oh please make my wish come true.
Santa can you hear me?

Santa can you hear me?
I have been so good this year.
And all I want is one thing:
Tell me my true love is here.
She's all I want, just for me,
Underneath my Christmas tree.
I'll be waiting here,
Santa that's my only wish this year.

he got the best birthday present one could ever get last year.
but he did not cherish it well.
this year,
can i get a similar present to his?
i really hope to tell you what's been inside of me.
santa please grant me this one wish.
cos im giving it to someone special.

others; blessed

2006-12-20T00:34:00.000+08:00

Seeing how my frens are being treated,
i feel so unseen.
The presents, they're so blessed.
I can see the pure smiles on their faces.
While i can never have the chance to experience that myself.
Blame fate. Fuck fate. Blame my birthday.
As i said,
maybe it's best to see the smiles of others than to smile myself.
But come to think of it,
it hurts so much comparing them to myself.
It's the raining season.
And i dont wish to make it worse.
I always needed a hug,
someone to hear my cries.
I've never hugged somebody before.
If only im able to cry and hug the mirror,
it may be better.
I've always kept it to myself,
not wanting to add on to the worries with so much to worry already.
While it's tiring enough to worry about everyone else.
Im really sick of this life.
Full of worries and frowns.
It's hard turning that frown upside down.

replies to tags:
shih: yea it's been quite some time i changed it heh.
BARNEY: omg finally the sakae day has come woooots
pengyang: yea satisfied with the sushi but there's still SWENSENS
Nurulhuda: wows i think we have a new member in teapot (:
greatgrandaughter: did a good job taking care of mummy! x)
barney: we were 'supposed' to be sick =P
shawn: the song's not nice but i dont want to delete it hahaha
AHXIN: takecare too! you've got a very fillial baby leys. awww ahgong body aching all over x.x

take time to wake up

2006-12-13T19:13:00.000+08:00

'whatever you have ; you eventually lose it'
this theory from DejaVu is true.
but let me add on to it.
'you can choose when to lose it'
yeas.
this is life.
ups & downs.

take the precious time to think.
get the clear picture.
you should've woken up with so many alarm clocks provided.
dont blame or decide rashly.
think before every decision or opinion.
consider whose blame it should fall apon.
not entirely; but why should it be blamed.
learn to appreciate everything god given you.
learn to appreciate everything we given you.
why do we have this word : problems ?
that is for us to solve it.
every problem has an answer.
you'll have to think so that you can solve it.
every word is implied for a reason.
lets say the word : promises.
it's so easy to say it out but if you could say it,
can you keep it?
this may be the last chance for you to do so.

deleted

2006-12-07T14:38:00.000+08:00

ok the post's deleted.
if it's gonna happen again u wont know wad's gonna happen.

replies to tags:
jy : yea cheered up. so happy to see you at westmall (:

pengyang : hah post deleted. got time tell u yeas.

daughter : my BARNEYYYY !! heh i'll never fail to be the 1st one to sleep bleh :x

ahxin;siti;didi? : hah yea i sure will smile (: thks yeas. i suppose didi = dada? hahaha

fuck the two bitches

2006-12-06T14:02:00.000+08:00

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i felt the gap again

2006-12-04T00:37:00.000+08:00

maybe it's better to see the smiles of others than to smile myself.
today i felt the gap again.
i dont want to tell why i felt that way before meeting angela.
after met up with angela we went to expo find mervin and shawn.
merv bought his zen vision 30gb and i got my speakers and memory card.
i was like so waiting for dinner before going to expo.
then in the end there was nth left to eat.
damn i really didnt want to scold vulgars out but i couldnt help it.
i sensed the gap again after that.
i didnt want to let the tears fall in front of them.
moreover i dont want to make a fool of myself.
i dont feel the closeness like we did.
it feels so mild ; so little again.

hidden to maintain the hidden frowns again.

laopo hse

2006-11-30T19:31:00.000+08:00

just woke up from sleep and im too tired to elaborate on the pics :

so is that how u see me

2006-11-27T18:50:00.000+08:00

so is that the way im being treated?
im so worried & concerned abt the things happening arnd us & im totally left in the dark.
if we dont feel the trust among ourselves how can we stay tgt.
all the efforts seem such a waste.
forget it.

ocbc

2006-11-24T23:37:00.000+08:00

okay another job offer for the weekends.
starting tmr onwards for 5 weekends.
ok lah not so bad at least weekend got time to slack haa.
damn 1st person to kena orchard and it's SO FRIGGIN HOT.
nwae next week im not gonna get that agn cos locations wil change heh.
&& i jus got my pay! omg
im so gona buy that fone on monday bleh.
and laopo dont worry you'll be the first to take photo with me with that fone ((:
that should be it yea.

replies to tags :

daughter lala ' : YOUR DADDY GOT BURNT BUT SURVIVED HAA

son shawn ' : nope dey didnt ; u see ur daddy so concerned abt the society (:

laopo ting ' : haiyo u all hor ppl worried mah wad if my laopo got burnt den how =x

CY ' : how u know i got go ur blog leyy? haa next time i try to rmb to tag okay (:

parkers wine

2006-11-23T01:21:00.000+08:00

today did nth much.
met up with timmy and mer at jp then headed for je to meet the rest.
to my surprise jialin tagged along for fun haa.
den the whole grp of 10 headed to clarke quay (clerk key)
for the job briefing.
after hearing that py said he didnt want to do the job.
den we headed for vivocity.
had subway for dinner and we went up to our regular place at the balcony.
i slept for abt 30min?
haa den used jiaqian's speakers to listen music; so handy
den den wad happened after that i dont wish to elaborate.
den we went to reservoir 'crazy' a while.
'long legs dont always win' -.-"
den took bus home and zzzz.

replies to tags:
1st laopo jieting : wont have another one ler =)

laopo mingqi : i miss all of them including you too !! xD

daughter angela : of cos lar DADDY ley of cos pro & i am so concerned abt the community lor maybe the police should give me an award or sth =x next time dun let u slp ar tell u more red shoes scenes hehheh

son shawn : MERlion spit fire? wherewherewhere?

son mervin : OMG we should do this more often 'healthy' & fun LOL

fire

2006-11-22T09:49:00.000+08:00

went to sch to get IC but the bloody MSTHAM go china.
damn wish her plane will be hijacked by terrorists make me wait so long.
den went to jp with shawn to see phones.
OMG i definately want that N6280.
so cheap omgomgomg.
den slept for one hour while on the way to expo.
wows it's much more busier than the motorshow.
den walk walk buy buy eat eat around.
then i sat infront of their booth and watch I NOT STUPID 2.
went to fetch my daughter in a while :D
then they walk walk buy buy eat eat while i was penniless -.-
okays weekends are strikeout-ed cos got another job.
i wonder huimin confirm that all of us hired or not.
then then all took train home where i was suffering like $#^@%.
alighted at JE den relieved myself.
omg den all the buses were off service and lala & shawn had to take cab back.
then then me & mer walk back home.
guess wad?
FIREEE happened arnd science center area.
damn i called the police omg.
den me and mer ruuunnnn all the way frm chinese garden to blk 399 and took elevator see where the fire was.
damn the fire came frm an incenerator at jurong industries x.x
okay i dont want to talk abt tis so paiseh.
den den lala called to see wad happened.
then we talked abt red shoes summore she was in her bedroom & going to sleep.
haha if i continued the story dont know she still can sleep or not =x
that should be it haa =D

WORK IS OVER

2006-11-20T00:47:00.000+08:00

10 exhausting but memorable days have passed.
seriously i cherished all the people i met at the motorshow.
let me take tis opportunity to show my gratitudes and feelings.
1st - francis & edwin for giving us the best you could to take care of us.
2nd - the SUNG BENG brothers who were the funniest people ive met.
3rd - EVE for standing up for our rights & entertaining us with loads of fun.
4th - the NISSAN counter lady who risked giving me two NISSAN FAIRLADY 350Z miniatures just because i had to give somebody one =p
5th - the many friends i got to know there !!
SHERYLN
HUIMIN
ELISSA
LEROY
RUSSEL
PETER
THE EXHIBITOR LOUNGE GIRL WHO WE SEE EVERYDAY BUT DONT KNOW HER NAME =X
cherishedd ;

ps i really hope you'll like the birthday gift though i rushed thru it =/

last day of motorshow

2006-11-19T01:33:00.000+08:00

tmr's the last day of work.
& probably (fingers crossed) the last day to be able to see her.
who?
aint it obvious.
the day after will be her bdae & im deciding to pass her the gift.
i think i'll jus write everything that i wanna say inside the card.
but people;
dont think too much okay.
i only admire her a lot.
but that doesnt mean i like her -.-
i wont entertain people who thinks i like her.
hope tmr i wont feel that emotional yea.

replies to tags
mrsbarney - u miss daddy issit so long time never see you & u never see me =P

shih - yessss really no motive read my post haaaa

zhimin - yeas u better DONT think crooked ars hehhheh

shawn - sssoooorrryyyy laaa if i gave it to someone else i wont feel good inside =x && who call u dun wan open ur eyes see where was ocbc hahaha

oxy - MUMMYYYY !!! got time i show u all ur sons/daugheters/
grandaughters/grandsons/
greatgrandaughters/greatgrandsons etc
xD

sheryln

2006-11-17T00:30:00.000+08:00

im am in a so very good mood today that's why i've decided to blog.
1st happy thing is that there is only 3 more days to work.
2nd thing is that i've got to know more friends.
3rd thing is that i took pictures with sheryln!!
omg! im so happy! x))))

me & sheryln xD

i look so stupid -.-

but hey people dont think crooked ars;
i have no other motives other than taking pictures w her xP
tmr meeting daughter in law and regulars for breakfast at 7.45 omg x.x
& laopo & my son is starting their work tmr.
jiayou u two okays?
daughter in law also having work so all of us regulars must jiayou together =)
after all the hard work we shall all enjoy x))
that should be it goodnites people =)

last post b4 job

2006-11-09T23:24:00.000+08:00

this shall be the last post before i leave for work until 19th nov.
miss me while im away people =P
& hor im gonna earn that money rather than shaking legs at home hehh.
i think shawn & kenny should be prepared by now.
laopo i'll try my best to keep the regulars together okay =]
& we shall always be happy happy no matter what.
even if we aren't happy we still must try okays =)
ahwen ars after ahgong's job's done i'll try my best help u get ur stitch kays.
today $2 gone in that machine =( awww
& that dumbo is so cheat cant win one.
hope tmrw will go just fine for me.
after work it's gonna be time for enjoyment =)
so that should be it yeas.
regulars if you're seeing this please note that tmr we're meeting 7am mac.
regulars will always stay as regulars =)

i shall cherish the ones around me.

2006-11-07T18:05:00.000+08:00

Why do we never know what we got 'til it's gone.
How could I carry on.
The day you went away.
Cause I been missing you so much I had to say.
Been crying since the day.
The day you went away.

what is it that's making us so moody.
im trying to make my mind carefree.
you should also try your best to keep that smile always ; no matter what happens.
just like your 'grandma' said to me:
Life is not a problem to be solved but a gift to be enjoyed.
keep this sentence in mind boy.
if you were to ever forget this i can not help you anymore neither do others.

im totally disappointed

2006-11-06T21:47:00.000+08:00

im totally disappointed today.
i shall not explain too much.
i dont wish any of this to break us apart.
i cant help it but to really tear it out.

thanks angela for caring about me when im not around with u guys.
thanks fanny for letting me know this & understand my feelings.
thanks laopo for hearing my woes.

jasmine i may not have any expressions on my face but i am really glad to see you so happy with the piglet.

i have nothing more to say.

i really do not wish all this to end.

i'll accept

2006-11-01T20:56:00.000+08:00

cooled down.
thks ahwen for listening to my ferocious words.
really appreciated.
i guess i'll just have to accept the predestinied.
i can't change it.
i'll keep it natural.

im sick of this shit

2006-11-01T19:29:00.000+08:00

im so totally pissed by everything's that happening arnd.
decisions to make are like so difficult.
some may still need a whole night to decide?
man im so sick of making decisions when it's all lame answers & craps.
i wont plan on anything or bother anymore.
i'll keep quiet.

closing down

2006-10-31T19:51:00.000+08:00

i feel like closing this blog down.
there's nothing happy to talk about in this blog.
the more i write the more i feel down.
im sick of this.

the beautiful disaster

2006-10-30T21:30:00.000+08:00

the beautiful disaster.
was it all fated?
the disaster that is blinding me with a beautiful picture?
or should i say a masterpiece.
a devil in disguise ;
hunting me down.

am i really blinded by the people around me?
i cant assure the ones i can really trust on; rely on.
presently, im convinced that it's beautiful to me ;
but still im having doubts on some of them.
will this turn into a disaster to us all?
i cant assure anything right now.

shopping

2006-10-29T21:09:00.000+08:00

wows shopping with sis & mother today.
bought a Goldlion shirt, Levi's jeans & Kappa high cut shoes.
& the best thing is that i didn't even had to bring my wallet xD
everything my sis 'bao ka liao' hehhhehs.
dec 9th nd 18th is her wedding day.
hope i'll be able to invite some peeps go.
budden need arnd 10 ppl to open a table so, yeas.
& hor, my 1st laopo wants me to be her atm on the wedding day -.-
hahas poor me x.x
that shld be all for today yeas.
nd son dont say i never update cos i jus did so =)

nth to blog abt

2006-10-27T00:38:00.000+08:00

i have nothing to blog about thank you (=

wont let you fall.

2006-10-20T18:04:00.000+08:00

seeing all the frowns, tears, & cries.
it just hurts me to see them like this.

all i want to say is that i wont let any of you fall.

we shall enjoy the fun together, go through the woes together.

no matter the outcome on monday,

we shall all be a whole, not a part of it left out.

that's what friends are for.

i love you all.

2006-10-19T17:45:00.000+08:00

suddenly felt like telling these important people how much they mean to me.

MERVINbeen friends for 3years & running. never forgotten your weird moves !! xD
SHAWNthough known you jus tis year but i know we will stay as friends like we're supposed to. thanks for showing me the meaning of genuine friends =]
KENNYalso been friends for 3years & running. the guy who shares the same bdae as me!! x]
FANNYone of my beloved grandaughters. make your parents proud alright =] ahgong always stand beside you.
JASMINEanother beloved grandaughter. smile more often ahxin =) ahgong dont wish to see ahxin with a frown.
ANGELAthe headquarters of the group ! xP thanks for letting me feel less left out among the group. we all shall stay as one =]
JIETINGagain been friends for 3years & running. i was touched when you thought that i was in 3-3 while having sushi. thanks girl =]

i may have left out some people but no matter ups or downs,
we will all stay as one until time stops.

抱着你哭.

2006-10-17T20:24:00.000+08:00

got back results today.
though didnt fail any but im not happy.
so what if i got good results.
there's no one to share the joy with.
if only i could ;
hug someone whenever i could & cry it all out.
maybe i will feel better.
i doubt so that the chance will come.
seeing my two beloved grandaughters tearing today;
i cant help it.
i tried to hold back my tears.
family problems ;
why is there such a thing for us to suffer.
so heartbreaking, so evil.
im sorry i cant help in any way.
i cant help myself.
hao xiang bao zhe ni ku ='(

after chalet.

2006-10-16T16:09:00.000+08:00

i expected for the chalet to turn out fun & carefree for everyone.
but it didn't quite happen.
got emotional while night fell.
kenny was quarreling so fiercely with his mum.
mingqi was trying every mean to please her grandma.
i felt how they felt ; but i just cant do a thing to help.
i felt so useless as a daddy & laogong.
i really hope nothing bad happens to kc & mingqi.

i cant find a true friend to talk to.
i cant find a true friend to hear my cries.

exams over !!

2006-10-13T23:35:00.000+08:00

i actually did not switch on my computer for the past 3 days. wow.
leme see if i can recall wad i did the past two days.

yesterday ;
high hopes for a math gone but no worries for physics.
we didnt give a damn abt the paper the following day.
family went to 321 bbal court play bbal.
so tiring after a game. couldn't recall when was the last time i played.
mervin, shawn, timmy, jialin, angela nd mingqi went to lakepark to ;
fish -.-
i wonder how they caught 4 guppies in 1 hour lols.
den jieting nd zhimei stayed nd continued bbal.
evening time, some guys came to join in.
damn guess wad?
dey actually held cigarettes in their hands nd asked if we wanted to play with them.
dots lor smoke stil wan play piang ehs.
after the game with them it was like i was feeling sick all over.
nvm they were a bunch of fools playing the game.
and here comes the highlight of the night :
my calf was like so angry with me nd keep giving me cramps.
two particular guys rmbered how i cried out 'AHHH ~ ahhhh' when the cramps came -.-
they were none other than my two 'unfillial' sons shawn & mervin -.-
hahas.
sank into bed with two lifeless legs nd fell aslp.

today ;
didn't even bother abt the paper today.
awaiting for dismissal nd 5 of us went to make our ICs.
totally sian diao when 3 of us cant make ic with a photocopied birth cert.
jieting nd kuenwai had their ICs registered.
hahas.
jieting thought there was really a need to pay by nets nd begged me.
in the end cash was accepted.
hehhehs.
den jieting kc nd me headed for shawn's house.
the trip was like so frigging long budden used to it :D
volleyballed with jialin, mingqi, mervin nd the 3 of us of cos.
omg someone actually thought i was doing chinese dance rather than playing vball -.-
hahas.
headed for home in a while.

something struck me while i was in the bus home.
i saw an old man getting off the bus.
he was arnd 65 i think?
i knew he jus knocked off work by his looks.
i was thinking where had his children go to?
leaving an old guy to survive by himself.
the day before me & tim saw an old lady & guy at the court.
the wheelchair-ed guy had difficulty to walk nd talk.
wow rhyme.
his words came out rather slowly.
the old lady den sat beside w/o much expression.
sometimes i wonder,
could life really be happy at that age?
living by ourselve when our hair are white & holding a stick?
i could imagine myself in their shoes then.

nwaes chalet coming sunday !!
have loads of fun family !! (:

i wana feel accepted.

2006-10-06T15:38:00.000+08:00

treasuring the people around you is important.
but what to do when they dont treasure you?
i seriously have no idea who does and who doesnt.
a lot of things went pass my mind.
is there such a thing that there is a best-est friend beside each of us?
if there is , i dont think i have.
i really want to feel treasured =/

the teapot family.

2006-10-04T21:19:00.000+08:00

exams officially starting tmr.
hopefully i'll be fully prepared.
i feel comfortable around them.
of course it's the teapot family =))
each & everyone of them is equally important to me.
my bdae wish for this year is for the teapot family to stay as one forever ((:
may this little wish of mine be granted.
it's only one week & the teapot family is gonna enjoy til we drop xD

bdae.

2006-10-03T20:53:00.000+08:00

i somehow loved today.
because i realised that some people do care ;
while some do not.
thks a lot to OXY, shawn, jasmine, fanny, mingqi, jieting, jialin, qianhui, siti, aisyah, huda, angela, shiqi, zhixuan, jiayi, & the PIG jiajun =P
if i missed out anybody i am truely sorry.
now i realise that's what friends are for =)

no big deal.

2006-10-02T21:45:00.000+08:00

so what if its only minutes away.
no big deal.

no more days.

i feel so left out

2006-10-01T19:38:00.000+08:00

out for the past 2days.
actually intended to study at jp but we ended up at yeehwee's house.
bought a cake b4 we made our way dere.
dey were all playing with the cake instead of eating -.-
dots. hahas.
den after that rushed home to bathe and come back down to bl mac meet up with jieting, angela, merv, fanny nd mingqi.
hmmms we studied the whole night den we fell aslp x.x
e next day felt so tired. hmmms.

i felt so left out among them.
it was like i was an outsider cos im not in the same class as them.
they all seemed so close with each other.
i felt the warmth they had together.
if only i could've been part of them.

2days =/
no one knew.

Perhaps Love

2006-09-28T20:45:00.001+08:00

Perhaps Love - Goong OST
uhn jeh yuht duhn guhn jee gee uhk nah jeen ah nah
jah kkoon nae muh ree gah nuh roh uh jee ruhp duhn shee jahk
hahn doo buhn ssheek dduh oh reu duhn saeng gahk
jah kkoo neul uh gah suh joh geum dang hwang seu ruh oon ee mah eum

byuhl eel ee ah neel soo eet dah goh
sah soh hahn mah eum ee rah goh
nae gah neh geh jah koo (neh geh jah koo)
mahl eul hah neun geh uh saek hahn guhl

sarang een gah yo geu dae nah wah gaht dah myuhn shee jahk een gah yo mahm ee jah koo geu dael sarang hahn dae yo
ohn seh sang ee deud doh rohk soh ree chee neh yo
wae ee jeh yah deul lee jyoh~ OOH~
suh rohl mahn nah gee wee hae ee jeh yah sarang chah jaht dah goh

jee geum nae mah eum eul suhl myung hah ryuh hae doh
nee gah nae gah dweh uh mahm eul neu kkee neun bang buhp ppoong een deh

ee mee nahn nee ahn eh eet neun guhl
nae ahn eh nee gah eet deu shee
oo reen suh roh eh geh (suh roh eh geh)
ee mee geel deul yuh jeen jee mohl lah

sarang een gah yo geu dae nah wah gaht dah myuhn shee jahk een gah yo mahm ee jah koo geu dael sarang hahn dae yo
ohn seh sang ee deud doh rohk soh ree chee neh yo
wae ee jeh yah deul lee jyoh~ OOH~
suh rohl mahn nah gee wee hae ee jeh yah sarang chah jaht dah goh

saeng gahk hae boh myuhn (saeng gahk hae boh myuhn) mah neun soon gahn sohk eh (sohk eh)
uhl mah nah mah neun (YEAH~) suhl leh eem ee ssuht neun jee
joh geum neu jeun geu mahn keum nahn duh jahl hae jool kkeh yo..

hahm kkeh hahl kkeh yo choo uhk ee dwehl gee uhk mahn suhl mool hahl kkeh yo
dah sheen nae gyuh teh suh dduh nah jee mah yo
jjahl beun soon gahn joh chah doh bool ahn hahn guhl yo
nae geh muh mool luh jwuh yo~ OOH~
geu dael ee ruh geh mah nee (geu toh rohk mah nee)
sarang hah goh ee ssuh yo (geu dae yuh yah mahn) ee mee~

Perhaps Love - Goong OST (Eng)
I can’t remember exactly when it was
That my mind began to fill up with thoughts of you.
It all began with just one or two thoughts,
But as each day went by, there were more, and I am confused.
I keep telling you that it’s nothing important.
But even that feels awkward.
Is this love?
Do you feel the same?
My heart keeps telling me that I’m in love with you.
My heart is shouting to the world that I’m in love with you.
Why have I only heard it now?
The voice keeps telling me that I have finally found love.
I want to tell you how I feel,
But you can probably feel the way I feel.
I am already a part of you as you are a part of me.
We may have already become a part of each other.
Is this love?
Do you feel the same?
My heart keeps telling me that I’m in love with you.
My heart is shouting to the world that I’m in love with you.
Why have I only heard it now?
The voice keeps telling me that I have finally found love.
When I think back,There were so many moments
When I felt my heart was about to burst.
It’s a little late, but I’ll try my best.I want to be with you.
I only want us to share good memories.
Please don’t leave me.
I don’t want us to be apart, even for a moment.I love you so much.

i simply love this ((:

your lies

2006-09-28T20:33:00.000+08:00

omg i simply love tis song !!
it just sounds so niceee =D
hahas.
exams is just 3days away.
hopefully i'll do well this time.
dont wish my efforts so go to waste.
im longing for the day to come.

your lies,
her innocence,
your mistake.

it's over

2006-09-23T22:56:00.000+08:00

okay.
i've got it.
it's over.
no point brooding over it.
i'll respect your decision.
maybe she's not the right one yet.
i have yet to find my happiness.
from now on im the carefree guy i used to be.
i still have my frens nd family around ((:
it's not the end of the world.
i treasure all of them lots (:
may god show me the path to my happiness.

still 10 days

is it the right time?

2006-09-23T19:56:00.000+08:00

is it the right time?
should i confess right now?
im so confused.
i have no idea who she's refering to.
i hope that it's me.
i want it to be me.
i dont want to feel that heartbreaking feeling again.

10days

when will the rain be over =(

2006-09-21T20:06:00.000+08:00

another typical day passed.
i had some thoughts today.
what if;
i visualised her with someone else.
it was a really heartbreaking feeling.
i almost teared out infront of my friends.
thank god i didn't.
i dare not think too much.
i fear misunderstandings.
i fear criticism.
the only way to overcome this ;
i think of my beloved family.
they're the only ones that can make me smile right now.
they're on the '10mostimportantpeopleinmylife'.
i love each nd everyone of them lots.

when will the rain be over =(
show me the ray of light from the clouds.
even if im blind ; your light will lead me the way to loving you =/
because i love you so.

i wana give up =(

2006-09-20T21:11:00.000+08:00

studystudystudy -.-
this is becoming my timetable very soon.
grrr.
nvr mind jus go thru this and its gonna be happy hour for as long as i like (:
nd hor;
my great-grandaughter SITI's back is hurt =(
hope she'll recover asap nd can play VOLLEYBALL again =)
people study hard for eoy exams (:

i feel like giving up.
but im trying every mean not to.
if only i knew ;
how u felt.
maybe things just cant go our way.
if it doesnt mean to be mine it wont be'

if only you knew ; how i felt inside

if u had'nt appeared.

2006-09-19T17:15:00.000+08:00

it hurts so much ;
just to see you , think of you.
if only you had'nt appeared,
my life would not turn out this way.
whywhywhy?
why am i losing faith?
it's fading away ; slowly.
i wonder would you be happy or sad to know this.
i cant take this anymore.

i will wait

2006-09-14T21:17:00.000+08:00

ive got it.
i know why.
i hope you could treat me just as a normal friend.
as time goes by,
i hope we'll see the results.
i will wait till the time is right.
if only you were to allow me to.

still 19days.

why do i still thinnk of you.

2006-09-14T18:05:00.000+08:00

today's another lifeless day.
stayed in sch till 4 -.-

why do i still think of you.
i almost gave up faith on you.
but sometimes i still feel that im deeply in love w you.
i knew you needed time.
i needed too.
i just could not get you off my mind.
people around me keep asking me a lotta things.
all the questions ; i have no answers.
if only i had the chance to call your name 'dear',
my questions would be answered.
do i have that chance?
im still hanging on.
i havent fell for someone else.
19days to go.
how i wish i'd have that perfect gift from you =///

new

2006-09-13T23:10:00.000+08:00

ive decided.
im gonna start everything anew.
all the frustrations and doubts : out
i'll take it as nothing happened.
friends remain as friends.
crushes disappear into thin air.
time will lead where my heart belongs to.

still 20days

should i?

2006-09-13T19:53:00.000+08:00

today was a fine day.
just went to jp see contact lens ;
had lunch and headed home.
should i wear contacts? hmmm.
yesterday night someone asked me;
whether i fell for someone else.
okay people get this fact right.
it's not an excuse to let her go & fall for someone else.
im totally clear that falling for her was all an infatuation.
but then again,
i havent answered that person's question.
even if i had fell for someone else;
i dont think i stand a chance =/
i'll have to differ love & friendship with a fine line.
some people say friendship leads to love.
sorta true? i dont know.
have i really fallen for someone else? =/

20days

i have no more feeling for u.

2006-09-12T20:20:00.000+08:00

i think ive made a big mistake.
it was most probably infatuation.
yea i think so.
i have no more feeling for you anymore.
rest assured i wont be going after you from tmrw onwards.
but what im worried about is your so called 'bestie' in class.
if you're seeing this ; take my words.
you dont know her that well.
i dont wish to see you being hated like she is.
i cant imagine myself hating you ; jus like i hate her.
the choice is yours.
nwaes, my big day is just 22 days away.
ive changed my wish.
it doesnt matter if she's dere on my bdae.
i only wish that my beloved FAMILY would be there.
dey're my 2 sons mervin & kenny ;
my 2 grandaughters jasmine & fanny.
that would fulfill my wish this year.
i <33>
if only my mummy OXY would be there too how nice would it be.
she's in HK right now ; having fun.
hahas.
enough for today.
21days to go.

sian la msn down

2006-09-11T20:54:00.000+08:00

PIANG EH !!
singapore msn server sucks like shit laa >=O
cant chat cant do this do that WTHHHH.
think im gonna wait til tmr den can use -.-
if still cant den i'll go to YAHOO.
and its byebye msn xD
hehhehs.
ive gotta start my revision now. hmmmms =/

22days to my birthday ;
23days to exams -.-" dots

my only wish ;
just once ; that she could celebrate my day with me, i have nothing else to ask for =/

sian la.

2006-09-10T18:48:00.000+08:00

i am so frigging bored so ive decided to blog -.-
when should i start? hmmms.

wednesday.
went to sch for core geo lesson.
went home after that to prepare to go pinheng hse that night.
piang.
going his house is like feeding mosquitoes -.-
till naw stil have e bite marks. grrrr.
dere were timothy, javihn, xiong, kang, angela, jieting and me.
stella and heng of cos (its their house ; dots)
ton-ed at his hse til 3 den we all went in to zzz.

thursday.
slept almost the whole day cos veh tired at heng's hse.
played some computer games and bought back 12cans of tiger for e next day.
zzz.

friday.
wows.
the day i waited for.
met up e peeps at je mrt.
the trip dere was so frigging long -.-
but i didnt fell aslp in e train. wow o.O
settled down at east coast resort.
heard it wud be closing down soon. iduno.
had lunch after settling down.
sian man that place was more of robbery than a hawker.
everything so ex. bo bian. wasted 7 bucks just on lunch.
WALKed e way back from e hawker.
den dey play monopoly and big 2 til arnd 7+
din join in cos it was like ; boring? -.-
den we went to rent e bikes.
on e way dere it rained.
our left side was wet but right side was dry o.O ; pro ehs.
den when angela and jieting arrived we went to have dinner.
dey had mac. jieting stil dare say cannot waste food.
ended up all e fries was all over me. dey shouldve ended in my mouth =O
hehhehs.
went back and opened up some cans of tiger.
crapped inside the room with some of jieting's riddles -.-
it couldnt be any lamer.
den we cycled with some cans of tiger in our hands lols.
when we came back charmaine was preventing all e people from slping and yibin was dere to the rescue. hahas.
den in the morning cycled to the jetty to see sunrise up or nt.
too bad dere wasnt any den we went to mac buy breakfast.
didnt ate much cos stomach veh pain x.x
den went back to have our beauty dreams.
slept til arnd 10 and we had to check out.
bad thing was that we had to WALK out of e chalet cos no bus service -.-
and that was that. went home and sank into bed.
buden i stil woke up to watch everton vs liverpool at 7+
OMG everton won liverpool 3-0 !!
shiet man. hmmms.

sunday.
a typical normal day.
so sian nothing to do.
and now i am going down to buy dinner up before charlie's angel's is broadcast =P
btw had my haircut too. think im gonna be caught -.-
longing to see e faces of e peeps in sch tmrw :D

SENTOSA !!!

2006-09-04T22:28:00.000+08:00

omg !!
sentosa today was soooo fun !! :D
wahahahas.
though dere wasnt much clicks BUT we still saw many of em dere xD
so coincidental.
hahas.
i rushed from sch to sentosa and find em but e beach was so darn big and i cant find the 3-3 peeps -.-
jieting said walk left and mer said walk right x.x
i should have stood in the middle and dem to find me LOL =P
when they found me we had lunch fers.
dang -.-
that place was robbing my wallet -.-
SO EX dammit !!
grrrr.
after that we rented some bikes and e girls went to take e skyride.
i overheard dey said jieting cried while on e ride?
LOL. hahaha =x
den we headed for e beach and while i made my fers step in e water,
jieting pushed me in x.x
den played arnd in e water and sand til dusk and took some pics.
i admit that im not photogenic at ALL.
i dont even know any poses to make x.x
den e girls were all so busy taking pics and we guys waiting for em.
hahas.
after that we were all so tired and headed home.
i went taman market have dinner with shawn and mer b4 i headed home.
TODAY IS DEFINATELY FUN :D
tis friday 3-2 has an outing too.
e fun never stops =P

ive decided

2006-08-28T20:23:00.000+08:00

i've realised everything that i had been doing.
i kept thinking for myself but i didnt gave a thought for you.
sorry.
you'll need some time to get used to this school.
it's only been a week but it seemed like ages to me.
guess i was dreaming bahs. hahas.
i've made up my mind.
i decided to put this feeling and affection down.
it really felt better while being frank to each other.
the breathless moments are gone (:

*wo men yi ran shi peng you (:

what for?

2006-08-27T19:13:00.000+08:00

i finally know what's wrong with me.
what for feel so miserable?
why think so much?
i must be NATURAL.
yes.
that's what im gonna do.
the past few days was just so meaningless.
i've been hiding myself from you.
from this second onwards,
i will be who i am.
the one who has so many craps to say,
so cheerful and energetic person that i am.
i will throw this awkward feeling away from us.
i want to be who we are while sms-ing.
i only hope that i wont be too late.

alotta questions

2006-08-26T13:59:00.000+08:00

i dont have much faith left =/
does she feel the same way as i do?
i dont know.
its just so confusing.
should i love her / love her not?
i really dont know.
im thinking of her every second of my life.
thinking of positive AND negative things.
but it seems that negative things keep coming into my mind.
maybe its just that im not good enough for her.
i seem so shy towards her.
she seems so shy towards me.
or is it or she's trying to avoid me.
I DONT KNOW !!!!
i cant even contact her right now.
life is just so confusing.

you're never out of my mind every night and day.
every thing i do i think of you.
whenever i think of you, you make me happy, you make me sad.
i almost cried out at macdonalds yesterday.
but i dont wanna make a fool of myself infront of you.
and thank you fanny for the things you've done for me.
how i wished that i knew what you're thinking.
are you just shy?
or you're avoiding me.
i have so so many questions, but not a single answer.
its jus only one day that we haven't chatted;
and im feeling all alone by myself. you were right.
why could i talk so comfortably while sms-ing?
but while we're face to face we seem like total strangers?
i'll try to make the first step.
if only you show me the path to start and carry on =/

improvements

2006-08-23T15:56:00.000+08:00

half day of sch today.
intended to ask her out but im just too late =(
hais.
she went to watch movie at causeway point.
my hometown !! lols.
wanted to find her fers before i went home.
LATE AGAIN.
her show jus started when i reached woodlands mrt station x(
but ;
i managed to speak to her :D
but erms, it was just only thru e phone.
does it count as an improvement?
i really hope so.
'shun qu zi ran ; take your time'
thats what she told me.
i will (:

i duno how

2006-08-22T15:51:00.000+08:00

2days wasted. screwed.
why?
why can i chat with her so easily but not in school?
i just dont have the guts ;
or could it be that im at the wrong place, wrong time.
i like her ; but i just dont know how to express it.
im really thinking too much these days.
whenever she doesnt reply me, i'll start to hallucinate all e bad outcomes.
im afraid that i would irritate her,
but i just want to know her more.
im so afraid.
many friends told me to relax and not think too much.
i really appreciate it.

*if i had only one wish in my entire life, i wish to be together with you until our last breath.

should i?

2006-08-21T19:57:00.000+08:00

i've been thinking, so so much the past few days.
i almost broke down today.
all the 'what ifs' ran past my mind.
i knew her more during the weekend,
and i sometimes feel that im not good enough for her.
i have neither the gold, nor the artpiece.
but will these matter to her?
i possess nothing ; only the pure thing deep inside.
i really am mesmerized by her.
i wana be with her.
but can it be true?
or is it just a prank that god is playing on me?

*even though im just a wine cup, i will be the one who delivers the wine.

im loving each day more :D

2006-08-20T01:57:00.000+08:00

im lovin' each day even more :D

IM LOVING IT !!

2006-08-18T22:11:00.000+08:00

I FINALLY HAVE STH TO BLOG ABT !!
hahaha :D
i wont tell u guys why =x
hehe.
today i e fers words came out from my mouth OMG.
i could not believe it. hahas.
things will get better (:

YI BIN :D

2006-08-17T20:31:00.000+08:00

NEW CLASSMATE TODAY !! :D
everyone was so high and active man -.-
wont mention her name here though most of em know lols.
heard she's from cckss?
wow thats near my old hse =P lols no link.
anyways, our classmates were really friendly :)
so actively attending to her and telling her more abt 3/2.
3/2 SPIRIT !! WOOO =x
lols. that makes our class officially 40 people :D
and im back to my number 30 as always LOL.
hope she'll know us better as time passes and we'll know her better :)
i wonder where she'll be sitting OPPPS =P

boring.

2006-08-14T18:33:00.000+08:00

its so boring e past 2 days.
stayed at home most of e time and rot.
games = sian. homework = no mood. sleep = cant fall asleep.
-.- can life be any better?
IM SO DARN BORED.
someone entertain me please.
hais i stil havent learnt how to make e stars with straws.
and thanks A LOT to ahwen & ahxin for teaching me how to do e hearts :D
17 days left to complete it :)

the fast and furious

2006-08-12T20:56:00.000+08:00

today went to watch The Fast and The Furious ; Tokyo Drift.
omg e cars are so damn hot.
but still the girls are hotter =P
oops. hahas.
I WANA BUY A NISSAN 350Z WHEN I GROW UP !! =P
after movie saw charmaine and gang dere.
went home after that.
before i came out of house i realised one thing.
'you cannot change the world to suit you.'
after some thoughts i decided that tis was true.
be happy and contented with what you have,
and even what you dont.
cos no one is perfect, and neither do you.
dont think of negative points about yourself but postitive ones (:
if you hate yourself you're hating e world :D
so guys, have a smile always no matter ur life is up or down :)
happy moments in life are still to come.
*LIFE IS NOT A PROBLEM TO BE SOLVED BUT A GIFT TO BE ENJOYED !!*

National Day !!

2006-08-10T15:07:00.000+08:00

HOME SWEET HOME.
hahas. past two days were loads of fun for me.
national day eve ; went steamboat wif 3/3 and fireworks.
intended to find oxy dere but din wana play gooseberry =P
watching fireworks with someone special is indeed unforgettable.
but sad to say no one was beside me =(
ah wadeva.
fun came a day later :D
our class met at 10am at je station.
headed for east coast park.
actually we're only dere for bbq buden decided to stay for e night dere :D
hahas. headed for e beach after settling down.
played volleyball awhile and i got buried alive by e gals x.x
den chiong-ed for cycling all round ecp and got e bbq stuff.
after that we bbq-ed awhile and left some for ourselves for those who were staying overnight =P
oops.
hahas. buden e food wasnt finished sehs.
80pcs of chicken brought back by getty and weihao.
at night all of us were pengkang-ing food.
i was assigned the most important job of all.
EAT =D
hahaha. after that we guys tompang-ed some gals go buy some alchohol.
sad to say dey din get pass e 7-11 auntie x.x
den e gals used their most powerful skill of all.
get a guy to buy for em LOL.
i got a tiger ; getty heiniken ; ayleen hooch and i tink aisyah got a breezer.
ayleen and aisyah went back while i stayed at e chalet slacking.
came back drank a lil and played cards.
and den it came to SLEEPING time.
omg that was a disaster.
getty was sooooo noisy when david was gonna sleep beside her -.-
lols that was settled in an instant =x
den limwee and yonghao were $%$#%-ing arnd and david was bullying sinyee LOL.
we've got proof for that :D
hahas. btw we saw shuyu dere too.
hmmmm im getting a lil tired.
gonna go into a deep deep slp after i receive e pics of e outing from chiyen :D
wana see em?
go to e forum then. hahaha :D
gd nitey everybody.

new tee

2006-07-30T00:42:00.000+08:00

today (29/7/06) was a tiring day.
went to town with mervin,shawn and tim.
we all bought stuffs except tim -.-
buy shoe duno buy until where.
i bought merely a shirt, cos my wardrobe is really empty.
guess wad ; its purple :D
den merv and shawn bought their bags.
merv got a white one and shawn got a black one.
same pattern though.
and hor,
merv's gotta new name.
'mervin peipei' lols.
know why? cos hor,
he really know how to 'pei'with others.
school shoes, same as mine.
bag , same as shawn's -.-
after that tim went to meet his mum for steamboat.
da 3 of us went to bugis to have dinner.
omg bugis hor,
wan chiong arcade oso diff.
all da people there all soooo pro x.x
decided to leave den.
hmmm next saturday no more time go out lers.
merv and tim both needa perform at taman cc for ndp.
that means no one to pei wo ~
hais zhe me ban -.-

mr woon

2006-07-26T19:33:00.000+08:00

today was a quite okay day.
din really do anything much.
today's highlight : Mr Woon (form cher)
he's indeed a role model :D
he talked about how generations have changed,
attitudes changing,
and how we should respond.
there's one topic that brought in so much significance.
an example he mentioned was that he witnessed ;
how the term 'attitude' could be a very powerful word.
he told us history on how the basketball b girls proved what they were made of.
at last, he felt really emotional and teared :'(
wow. i could not believe it.
those words obviously came from e heart.
no doubt bout it.

*imma keep quiet*

mr ego?

2006-07-25T22:46:00.000+08:00

didn't really had anything to post but dere's something i really needa speak out. (i may sound a bit odd here.)
a friend(maybe?) wasnt really in a good mood today. that was obvious. of course something happened. i'll keep it private. i didn't expect to see em falling down those eyes. the person i wana talk about is someone; wearing a god damn MASK for 2 yrs and 7months, hiding that personality inside from everyone. but not ME of cos. hello mister, ive known you well enough through ur actions and doings. aint it so obvious showing who you actually are? somemore even trying to disguise urself, asking me to watch out? how i treat my friends? WTF? go treat yours dammit. HELLO speak for yourself dude. you're jus another victim of mine which i'm saying : LOOK INTO DA MIRROR BOY. man ure just so egoistic. ya gotta list all prepared? which to pick and which to dump? WOW not even Johnny Depp can do that. even if he did he would have not even dumped ONE of his girls OR, make that choice in the first place. you seem so.. hais what can i say? ure MR EGO. i cant even hold a candle to you. go on boy, pick as many as you like. we'll see how you turn out in the end.

*were we friends for da past 2&half years?*

napfa today

2006-07-24T20:53:00.000+08:00

napfa test today.
and a new blogskin.
nice? lols :P
going to stick to it for some time.
dun tink i can get gold next yr napfa.
PULL UPS omg.
i tried for fun but found out one is so diff.
jialat.
after that went home with TIMMY.
took e same bus and OMG.
beedisha took e same bus too.
she kept taking timmy's pics.
dont know why -.-
and fanny & band's zhimin were on e same bus too.
didnt really know zhimin but nice meeting her since she is my GRANDUGHTER de gud friend :)
hahas.
dere was one sentence where i liked the most when my G-DAUGHTER was chatting with zhimin.
it goes : '*someone* was so UN-gentleman lor. '
OMG I LOVED HEARING THAT.
hahahaha XD
thats da post for today.

ps 3-2 forum : http://z3.invisionfree.com/32JSS06

tis guy

2006-07-20T20:13:00.000+08:00

looks like keeping quiet isnt a solution. seems like there's a mystery guy here. but im damn sure he/she's someone i've known for a blinded 2 and a half years. not saying it into my face anymore? do it like u always do. oh please. if ya wanna ask me something jus shoot it right in my face. why keep urself a mystery where even god doesnt know who da hell u are and da problem is still left sitting down there. come on la ive known u well enough like i dont know who u are.

mask

2006-06-29T18:04:00.001+08:00

u really love going against me huh.
everything i want, everything u wana get.
everyone i hate, everyone u care.
i dont care how much you've help or cared for me.
since sec 1 till now u have not changed.
yes u may have ; worse in my opinion.
u know damn well what i am talking bout.
stop hiding urself behind that mask.
dun try to act mr nice guy infront of me.
u lied a lotta times to me.
u are mind is all haywired.
get em fixed.
u know em damn well.
you are a smart guy. u know whats right and wrong.
go reflect on yourself.
dont end up like me.

*get your mask off if you love her*

smile (:

2006-06-07T17:56:00.000+08:00

'whatever happens to your day,
dont worry and just manage to smile.
cos life is not a problem to be solved,
but a gift to be enjoyed.'
dese words are so meaningful (:
they help so much.
haha. felt bored and jus came in to kill some time.
such a long time din update ler. think dey may think tis blog is dead x.x
hmms nth much to say about really. jus played some games and slacked outside.
hmm lv83 priest in 2weeks omg o.O
hah :D
hmm try updating more frequently =)
i wont wana be left out among you guys.

if only

2006-04-28T16:18:00.000+08:00

din realy feel like posting but tis was wad she wanted so here it is.

if only
if only i had the guts then.
if only she had given me that precious moment.
if only he hadn't said those words out.
if only she hadn't given him that chance.
if only we were jus as before.
if only she did not told me.
if only i dont see them sitting together.
if only she knew what am i feeling every moment i see her.
if only she could feel what i feel.
if only all these weren't true.

forget it.

story of a guy

2006-04-15T19:39:00.000+08:00

family. do i have one? i doubt so.
jus went out wif a fren and his mum.
his mum bought a fone for him.
i could feel the love within them.
his mum bought the fone for him even though wif some setbacks.
his mum really loves him. very different from my mum.
i dont experience love. i neva receive any.
even frm the closest person in my life.
my jie was one whom i respected most.
but they say : change is good
we dont talk now.
maybe good for her and good for me.
people change. i cant blame anyone.
love. can i spell that out?
neva i guess.
friends are what i cherish most.
not even one of em is to be lost.
some understand me real well.
well some, otherwise.
some may jus seem to say what any other person will say,
but maybe they're jus trying to help out though they cant think of ways to solve the problem.
hope this doesn't offend anyone.
it's like survivor. i have to survive on my own.
i dont receive any love when i need them the most.
i'll never experience love..

we dont talk

2006-03-27T22:07:00.000+08:00

wad she said is true.
we dont talk.
but she doesnt knw da details behind it.
wadeva.
jus wondering how i can continue with tis kinda
sec 3 life.

words arent worth unspoken*

hopes

2006-03-10T19:54:00.000+08:00

todae was late.
tts nt my main point -.-
she spoke to me todae.
i didnt feel anything for her.
maybe tt 'feel' for her has gone?
i think so.
but on the other hand,
i havent talked to 'her' for quite some time.
im a lil lost.
who could it be?
i know those 3 words arent jus tt 3 words.
but im not so sure who it is.
i may be a laughingstock if it's not me and i say its me.
who could it be?

bemynewhope((:

guess?

2006-03-06T22:19:00.000+08:00

sometimes i feel its betta to jus keep quiet.
less being said , less misunderstandings.
but then again,
i cant face da truth.
i dont even knw wad to say or even keep my eyes on you.
stil remember da ferst day i saw you.
tried to get ur number.
it was so hard -.-
stil many many more things i did,
only to have you stil being kept in the dark.
how i wished YOU knew.
budden i dont tink you'll know everything =(

*guessing game? =/

true love

2006-03-05T21:34:00.000+08:00

jus watched moulin rogue.
i finally realised wads true love.
it was breathtaking.
power may not be everything.
love is all anyone needs.
jealousy can make someone mad.
but coming to reality,
i havent found my true love.
does it even exist anyway?
i do tink so.

*the greatest thing you'll ever learn is to love & be loved in return

its realli bored

2006-03-02T21:31:00.000+08:00

life is really getting boring these days.
i dont know why.
maybe its the people arnd me,
or maybe jus my way of thinking.
ITS REALLY BORING.
is life really meant to be like this?
school work is freaking me out.
i dun kare bout em.
I NEED ENTERTAINMENT.
=/

its getting bored

2006-03-01T20:12:00.000+08:00

life's getting so bored these days.
maybe it's cos da restrictions frm my mum.
damn.
duno why da hell of a sudden kare so much of wad i do.
argh dun wana kare bout her.
sometimes maybe love isnt everything.
no need for boy/girl friends to experience love.
just normal friends can too.
those words : stead ; patch ; break blablabla,
all are out dere jus to let others know.
wad for?
let da whole world know bout it?
hahas.
no offence to anyone by the way.
jus speaking my heart out.
but still,
i still feel for her so much ):

raining

2006-02-28T19:10:00.000+08:00

i cant take it anymore.
my heart is raining heavily.
so confused and complicated.
my mum is such a bore and pain in the head.
i really need you to color up my life.
i realise that its only you that can help me.
you can make me forget every problem of mine
no matter how hard the problem is.
i dont wish to say more.
hope u'll see this ):

suffering alone

2006-02-27T21:19:00.000+08:00

wad more can i say.
everything deep inside has been poured out.
all for her.
3yrs man.
i cant believe that im me.
i just feel so much for her.
but she will still never love me.
it's saddening isn't it.
you love someone so special for 3 years ;
but deep inside u know she will never love you.
no one would be able to accept this fact.
im just so stupid to continue loving her despite all these.
sometimes i feel like giving up.
how i wish she knows.
everything that im going through.
went through.
all these while i've been wearing this mask.
hiding all the sorrows and misery brought upon myself.
really hope that u feel it.

*feel

behind these eyes

2006-02-26T20:09:00.000+08:00

im breaking down into pieces.
i just feel so much for her.
but she never feels for me.
and she never will.
i enjoy being with her.
every single day of these 3 years.
i almost lost her ;
just because of some misunderstandings.
i cant imagine how it wud be like
right naw if i really have lost her.
i just want to cherish every single moment
that i'll be able to hav with her.
it doesnt matter when.
previous life ; now ; afterlife.
as long as i can be with her,
couples or not it doesnt matter to me.
cos i love her for her.

behind these eyes lie someone not
you supposed he is*

u dont know my pain

2006-02-25T19:03:00.000+08:00

i cant make myself type tis post.
but somehow i dont know why i could.

it reali broke my heart when i left.
i saw her look on her face ;
i could've even felt it.
i didnt want to turn back.
i realised it was the only time i had
where i could go out with her.
i didnt cherish it.
but too bad ;
she loves him.
she will never love me.

she dont know my pain*